Sweet

Halloween was sad for me the past four years. Now the sadness is gone, and I feel giddy. I decided not to do anything for it this year, Anise is too young, but I have never seen so much pre-halloween hype.

Anise is out with babysitter. I had tons of stuff to get done, now I can't remember what I had to do...

On the sleep front things got better and then worse, it is push and pull. But she is full of smiles and laughter, so I have to take it as it comes - try a little but stay relaxed. Easier said then done. The house is quiet.

Anise's birthday is coming up. I am excited and sad. One year. I have never had a year go by so fast, and it terrifies me because I know the years to come will be faster. I want to have a big celebration, to celebrate life, this life that came to us. How thankful I am that she chose us. This afternoon I found the perfect place to celebrate, yay!

Now: how do I not eat all the candy?